To my Messiah,
When I first came to know about it, I was devastated. Suddenly my world had turned upside down. It was like never before – everything was blank and so still. I thought for a second that all these years of my life were in vain.
Then it occurred to me. Why me? I repeatedly played it on a loop inside my head. Congested with so many emotions, I felt suffocated. Being an introvert, I kept everything to myself fighting with my emotions. Had been on the verge of an outburst but somehow it wouldn't come out, I couldn't let it out and so I blamed myself.
I don't know how to thank you enough since it's out of bounds how grateful and indebted I am to you for supporting me in these tough times. I know you are just my psycho oncologist but to me you are no less than a Saviour. A Messiah – who gave me back my peace of mind, who curbed all the negativity out of my overthinking head and pulled me out of darkness towards the light of hope. I feel so calm now. I embrace the serenity not only inside my head but also my heart.
I am now on my chemo. It hurts while the process is on but the result is soothing. I have started to find happiness in my life as you advised, doing the things I want to…. living life totally on my terms. But yeah, I don't neglect my studies too. My karate and other sports which I did previously are now on probation. So, during my free time I read books and listen to music, it helps a lot.
But don't think that since I'm doing better, I'll not visit you. When I visit you, I expose myself to such immense positivity that my strength surges through my veins faster.
The One who is fighting Cancer.